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從初中邁向高中，你或許會(huì)發(fā)現(xiàn)一切變得不同。你將要面對(duì)的不僅僅是考大學(xué)的壓力，也可能需要應(yīng)對(duì)來(lái)自人際關(guān)系方面的困境。這個(gè)時(shí)候，你該何去何從？下文的作者就分享了自己在高中生活中學(xué)會(huì)的事情，或許會(huì)對(duì)你有所啟發(fā)。

August 2011. The beginning of an era known as high school.

My journey began as an awkward， lazy and cocky1） freshman—and yes， I am willing to admit that， not to shame myself， but to show the changes. I wore too much makeup trying to fit in somewhere in between my old set of friends （where I soon realized that group changes almost three days into the school year）， and branched out2） trying to prove myself to other people to make them think I&apos；m worthy of being their friends， which was probably the worst idea I&apos；ve had in my four years at Revere High， but what it taught me was more than any a course I have ever taken at that school. （Yes， even more than what my AP class had taught me.）

When you&apos；re in high school， you take your classes to graduate， but what you do not notice is you are taking more than that. You are taking your life skills to the next level whether you like it or not. If you think about it， when you are a freshman， you are either 14 or 15， straight out of middle school where you were the top dogs3） of the school， then bam4）： you&apos；re in a school with people about to go to college. That was my issue： I thought I was ready for this huge change， but then the second I walked in， I wanted to run out.

I wasn&apos；t the best student， nor the worst. I was put in a limbo5） between being classified as stupid or being a nerd. That was a rough patch6） that I was stuck in because I was not the brightest star in my classes， but they called me a nerd because I acted studious. Even when I did my best like learning an A in my Freshman English class， I still for some reason got put in college prep7） English， and not honors8）， and then proceeded to ace9） my sophomore English college prep class. I felt there was something wrong with me， but then finally I got into Honors English after trying for three years. That class I passed with a B+ average， then I jumped to AP English this year earning a C+， which is fantastic， seeing10） I was barely prepared for this.

Here I am， the last nine days of my senior year are coming to a close. I am a genuinely11） different person than I was four years ago. So much has happened now as I am reflecting12） back on the last four years， whether it&apos；s amazing things or terrible. Yes， I did kill13） my GPA freshman and sophomore year. Yes， I did get a bad stomach disability， resulting in an intense surgery. And yes， I have done things I deeply regret. But there were positives as these years went on. I became an AP student. I got accepted to my top choice college with scholarships. I am a published writer on HuffPost Teen. And most importantly， I have a support group like no other14）. Whether it be my fifth grade teacher Ms. Anderson， my new found mentor， motivator， and friend Ms. Barile， or the people who have bullied me.

This is to those people. The people who laughed at me when I didn&apos；t know how to do basic algebra， the people who snorted15） when they figured out that I got published， the people who constantly have pushed me down—and then came crying back to me the second I did something like get great publicity16） and claim to be my friend. You are the ones who pushed me to this greatness， so I applaud you for trying to tease17） me by saying "That girl with the weird teeth" or even "That chick who has that weird fang".

Yes， I am that girl with the weird teeth. But I am also someone who persevered： Every emotional breakdown18） over some drama that doesn&apos；t even have relevancy19） in my life， or every time I would be in agonizing pain before my surgery， but then drag myself to school the next day， constantly trying to live my life while pleasing others. That has shaped me to be the girl I am today.

2011年8月，我的高中時(shí)代拉開(kāi)序幕。

高中之旅開(kāi)始時(shí)，我是個(gè)笨拙、懶散又自負(fù)的高一新生——是的，我愿意承認(rèn)這一點(diǎn)，并不是要羞辱自己，而是為了展示我的變化有多大。那時(shí)我化很濃的妝，試圖和以前的朋友（我很快意識(shí)到，那個(gè)學(xué)期開(kāi)學(xué)還不到三天，這些朋友就變了）還能打成一片。同時(shí)，我還嘗試做一些以前不太常做的事情，試圖向其他人證明自己，讓他們覺(jué)得我這個(gè)朋友值得一交——而這可能是我在里維爾高中四年里（編注：美國(guó)高中有四年，即9～12年級(jí)）有過(guò)的最糟糕的想法。不過(guò)，這件事教給我的比我在任何一門(mén)課上學(xué)到的都要多。（是的，甚至比AP課程教給我的還要多。）

當(dāng)你上了高中，你修各種課程才能夠畢業(yè)，但你沒(méi)有發(fā)現(xiàn)的是，你所學(xué)的可遠(yuǎn)不只是課堂知識(shí)。不論你是否愿意，你正在這里學(xué)習(xí)你即將應(yīng)用到人生下一階段的生活技能。想想看，你剛剛初中畢業(yè)，進(jìn)入高一，不過(guò)十四五歲，之前在初中還是學(xué)校的佼佼者，然后“咣”地一下，你就來(lái)到一個(gè)身邊人全都奔著大學(xué)去的校園。這就是我當(dāng)時(shí)的情況：我原以為自己對(duì)這一巨變做好了準(zhǔn)備，可剛一踏入校園我就想逃跑。

我不是最好的學(xué)生，但也不是最差的。這讓我處于一個(gè)不確定的境地，要么被歸到傻子笨蛋堆里，要么被劃到書(shū)呆子之列。我陷入了一個(gè)困境，因?yàn)槲也皇前嗬镒钜鄣哪穷w星?？捎捎谖冶憩F(xiàn)得非常刻苦，他們都叫我書(shū)呆子。不知道什么原因，我雖然盡最大努力在高一英語(yǔ)課考試時(shí)拿到了A，但還是被分到了大學(xué)預(yù)科班，而不是榮譽(yù)課程班。第二年，我在英語(yǔ)大學(xué)預(yù)科班又拿到優(yōu)秀的成績(jī)。我覺(jué)得自己可能出了什么問(wèn)題，但我終于在努力了三年之后進(jìn)入英語(yǔ)榮譽(yù)課程班學(xué)習(xí)，并且取得B+的平均成績(jī)。今年，我又跳到了AP英語(yǔ)課程班，同時(shí)拿到了C+——鑒于我?guī)缀蹙蜎](méi)為跳級(jí)到AP班做過(guò)準(zhǔn)備，C+這個(gè)成績(jī)簡(jiǎn)直太棒了！

如今，還有九天我高中的最后一年就要結(jié)束了?，F(xiàn)在的我和四年前真的大不相同?；厥走^(guò)去的四年，好也罷壞也罷，發(fā)生了太多事情。的確，我頭兩年成績(jī)平均分不怎么樣；的確，我曾得了嚴(yán)重的胃病，并因此動(dòng)了一次大手術(shù)；的確，我做過(guò)一些讓我后悔不迭的事。然而，這些年還有很多積極的方面。我成了AP課程班的學(xué)生；拿著好幾項(xiàng)獎(jiǎng)學(xué)金考上了最心儀的大學(xué)；我在《郝芬頓郵報(bào)青少版》上發(fā)表了文章。最重要的是，我有一個(gè)非常特別的后援團(tuán)。不論是我小學(xué)五年級(jí)的老師安德魯森女士，還是我剛剛找的大學(xué)導(dǎo)師巴瑞爾女士（她同時(shí)也是激勵(lì)我的人，是我的朋友），或是那些欺負(fù)過(guò)我的人，他們都是我的后援團(tuán)成員。

有些人曾經(jīng)在我不會(huì)做基礎(chǔ)代數(shù)題時(shí)嘲笑我；有些人在發(fā)現(xiàn)我發(fā)表文章后對(duì)此嗤之以鼻；還有些人一直欺負(fù)我，但在我做了一些事比如獲得很大的名氣后又馬上跑來(lái)，哭著喊著說(shuō)是我的朋友。對(duì)這些人，我想說(shuō)，是你們將我推到如今的高度，所以，我贊賞你們?cè)?jīng)奚落我是“那個(gè)牙齒丑陋的女孩”甚至是“那個(gè)長(zhǎng)著詭異獠牙的小妞”。

沒(méi)錯(cuò)，我就是那個(gè)牙長(zhǎng)得難看的女孩，但我也是一個(gè)堅(jiān)持不懈的人。無(wú)論是每一次我因?yàn)樯钪幸恍└竞妥约簾o(wú)關(guān)的戲劇性事件感到精神崩潰，還是我在做手術(shù)前每一次胃痛難耐卻在第二天依舊硬撐著到學(xué)校上課，還不斷在取悅他人的同時(shí)也努力過(guò)好自己的生活——正是這一切造就了今天的我。

1. cocky [?k?ki] adj. 狂妄自負(fù)的；趾高氣揚(yáng)的；驕傲的

2. branch out： 涉足（新領(lǐng)域）；拓展（業(yè)務(wù)、興趣等）

3. top dog： 權(quán)威；優(yōu)勝者；奪魁者

4. bam [b?m] vi. 發(fā)出“咣”的一聲

5. limbo [?l?mb??] n. （處于）前途未卜的境地

6. patch [p?t?] n. 時(shí)期

7. prep [prep] adj. 大學(xué)預(yù)科的。美國(guó)高中課程分三個(gè)難度等級(jí)，核心課程、榮譽(yù)課程和AP課程，難度依次遞增。這里的大學(xué)預(yù)科班所上的課程是高中教育所要求完成的核心課程，而AP課程指的是大學(xué)先修課程。此外，美國(guó)高中還會(huì)有進(jìn)補(bǔ)班（Remedial Classes），主要是為基礎(chǔ)較差、需要補(bǔ)習(xí)提高的學(xué)生而設(shè)。

8. honor [??n?（r）] n. 榮譽(yù)課程

9. ace [e?s] vt. （在考試或其他高壓情況下）表現(xiàn)出色

10. seeing [si???] conj. 既然，由于，鑒于

11. genuinely [?d?enju?nli] adv. 真正地

12. reflect [r??flekt] vi. 沉思；深思

13. kill [k?l] vt. 毀掉

14. like no other： 特別的

15. snort [sn??t] vi. （表示惱怒、反對(duì)或不耐煩）哼鼻子，嗤之以鼻

16. publicity [p?b?l?s?ti] n. （媒體或公眾的）關(guān)注

17. tease [ti?z] vt. 嘲笑；取笑；嘲弄

18. breakdown [?bre?kda?n] n. 神經(jīng)衰弱；精神崩潰

19. relevancy [?rel?v?nsi] n. 相關(guān)性；實(shí)用性；意義