May 8th， 2003. Wednesday， fine

I am so tired that I really want to have a good sleep. I feel puzzled that I didn't have the same feeling of having a lifetime sleep as I was in the last year of the junior school.How strange it is! Maybe I don't study as harder as before. My Jesus!I have to go on studying because I have my own dream， which is different from others.

At noon， I watch a TV program about many children of workers who have to discontinue their studying because no schools are willing to admit them.I have an impulse to cry. While seeing those faces full of desire and hope to get knowledge， I feel I am so mean. I really want to help them， but I am so weak. Now I feel I am lucky， compared with their bad living and studying situation. However， they still have a strong desire to learn knowledge， which makes me ashamed.While one girl mentioned her ideal in future， she said she wanted to be a architect， so she could build more schools and make her efforts for those who have desire to study. Her goal is so simple， but it seems hard to achieve. I feel so painful...

I am a little happy for no delaying of the college entrance examination.At the same time， I am a little worried for I have not prepared enough， though I want to fin- ish it as soon as possible. I feel anxious for how to spend the only left 29 days. I hope to make full use of every day and every minute to read books and to increase possi- bility for the last success.Thinking of thosechildrenwho havenoschoolto study， I am excited.It's only 29 days， which will pass away soon.So there is nothing hard. Comparing to the hardship of those children， my tiredness is not worth to be mentioned. The dawn is coming; I am going to be successful.

29 days later， each of us will go her or his own way， and will say goodbye to the nine- month restudy life. I feel a little reluctant to leave this place. But whatever， to say goodbye to the past needs a certain courage， which is smart as well. I stand in a one- minute silent tribute for the foolish things I have done before.After finishing it， I am a unique and great one without any burden again!

2003年5月8日 星期三 睛

整個(gè)人像要散了似的，好想舒舒服服地睡上一覺(jué)。我很納悶，居然沒(méi)有初三時(shí)想睡上一萬(wàn)年的感覺(jué)，真奇怪，也許我現(xiàn)在遠(yuǎn)沒(méi)有那時(shí)用功吧!我的天吶，還得繼續(xù)學(xué)，因?yàn)槲矣形业膲?mèng)想，與所有人不同的夢(mèng)想。

中午看到電視中播放那些民工子女因無(wú)學(xué)校而輟學(xué)的事，我馬上有種想哭的沖動(dòng)，看到那一張張對(duì)知識(shí)充滿渴求與希望的臉時(shí)，我一下子覺(jué)得自己好渺小，好無(wú)奈，我真的好想幫他們，但我的力量是多么的弱小。此時(shí)我覺(jué)得我又是幸運(yùn)的，看看他們居住的和學(xué)習(xí)的環(huán)境都那么差，可他們還是那么的想學(xué)習(xí)，真是令我慚愧不已。當(dāng)一個(gè)女孩子提及她的理想時(shí)說(shuō)，她要當(dāng)建筑師，因?yàn)槟菚r(shí)她就可以建造學(xué)校，為渴望求學(xué)的孩子們出份力，讓所有想上學(xué)的孩子們都有學(xué)上。多么淳樸的愿望啊，可為什么就那么難實(shí)現(xiàn)。我的心好痛，好痛……

高考沒(méi)有延期，心里有些欣喜，但也有些難過(guò)，因?yàn)橄胂朐缈纪暝绶潘?，只是我似乎還沒(méi)做好準(zhǔn)備。好著急呀，這僅有的29天時(shí)間，我會(huì)怎樣度過(guò)?希望我會(huì)利用好每一天，每一分鐘，每一秒來(lái)看書，為自己增添一份成功的把握。想到那些民工子弟沒(méi)學(xué)上的情景，我就渾身熱血沸騰，只不過(guò)是區(qū)區(qū)的29天而已，很快就會(huì)過(guò)去，有什么難堅(jiān)持的。比起人家那沒(méi)學(xué)上的困難來(lái)，我眼前的瞌睡不值一提，曙光就在前方不遠(yuǎn)處了，我一定會(huì)成功的。

再有29天，我們大家便要各奔東西了，就要對(duì)這9個(gè)月的補(bǔ)習(xí)生活說(shuō)再見(jiàn)了，多少有些留戀。但無(wú)論怎樣，對(duì)一段往事說(shuō)再見(jiàn)總是需要勇氣的，也是瀟灑的。我在這里為了我那曾經(jīng)的傻默哀一分鐘。默哀過(guò)后便真是一個(gè)毫無(wú)包袱的我了，這就是獨(dú)一無(wú)二的我，了不起的我!