我承認(rèn)，這些年來始終看謝霆鋒不順眼。可是面對(duì)面采訪他之后，我承認(rèn)，有些心疼這個(gè)比我小10歲的小弟弟。

“心疼？你心疼謝霆鋒？哈哈……”周圍同事聽我說出“心疼”這個(gè)聽來肉麻兮兮的詞，禁不住大笑不已。

我沒有辯解。他們沒有聽過謝霆鋒的真心話，沒有切身感受過謝霆鋒所處的生存環(huán)境，又怎能體會(huì)謝霆鋒呢？

書店里接受采訪“公私”兼顧

“灣仔地鐵站A4出口三聯(lián)書店？有沒有搞錯(cuò)，扮清高不用跑到書店讓我們采訪吧？”一路上，攝影大哥攥著英皇公司宣傳人員給的這次采訪的地址，一直嘟嘟嚷囔。我可沒有他那種“義憤填膺”的勁頭，人家能接受這次采訪已經(jīng)燒高香了，何必計(jì)較采訪地點(diǎn)呢？要知道，我們這回采訪的對(duì)象謝霆鋒，最近可是憑借電影《龍虎門》《無極》《情癲大圣》達(dá)到事業(yè)高峰的一個(gè)人物呢！

7月的香港驕陽如火，我們?cè)谟⒒始瘓F(tuán)中心所在的灣仔軒尼詩道來回走了幾圈，好不容易找到三聯(lián)書店。我們滿頭大汗推開門，一眼就發(fā)現(xiàn)坐在靠窗位子上的謝霆鋒，于是當(dāng)即迎了上去。

“本來打算在公司做這個(gè)訪問，但是正好要來買幾本書，所以干脆公私兼顧吧。”剛一落座，謝霆鋒便笑著解釋把采訪安排到這個(gè)古怪地方的原因?！岸視暌灿锌Х群?，蠻舒服的?！?/p>

談到書，我們才留意謝霆鋒面前擺著六七本書，除了一本流行多時(shí)的《達(dá)芬奇密碼》，剩下的就是卡通《幽游白書》。

“呵呵，我現(xiàn)在每天晚上睡覺只有看卡通才能睡著。因?yàn)榭ㄍㄊ澜绾苷妗⒑芗?，這讓我很放松，可以忘記現(xiàn)實(shí)生活中的很多無奈?！?/p>

一個(gè)二十幾歲的小伙子，會(huì)有多少無奈與困惑？我心中暗想。

2004年底，謝霆鋒到大陸拍攝《情癲大圣》，與之合作的陳柏霖、蔡卓妍、范冰冰、梁洛施、關(guān)智斌等，都是和他年齡相仿的年輕人，可是幾天下來，謝霆鋒竟然發(fā)現(xiàn)與他們之間出現(xiàn)了“代溝”。這幫年輕人，湊在一起談?wù)撟疃嗟氖荓V、NIKE限量、NBA、滑雪，謝霆鋒覺得這些內(nèi)容離自己好遠(yuǎn)，因?yàn)樗P(guān)心的是怎么還信用卡債，怎么將香港的房子外租的價(jià)格高一點(diǎn)。“看他們整天總是隨心所欲的，喜歡睡便睡，笑便笑，喜歡吃就吃，玩就玩，我覺得這種生活離自己好遠(yuǎn)?。　?/p>

有一天，關(guān)智斌請(qǐng)謝霆鋒一起玩大富翁游戲，他一臉的懵懂，因?yàn)樗恢来蟾晃淌鞘裁礀|西。關(guān)智斌像看怪物一樣盯著他足足看了一分鐘：有沒有搞錯(cuò)，哪有小青年沒有玩過大富翁的？

“結(jié)果在我房間玩，玩完一局又一局，我覺得很開心。他們走了之后，我坐在床上睡不著。有句話我從沒有跟他們說，其實(shí)心里很感謝他們，他們將我從未擁有的感覺和那種純真樂趣帶給我，長(zhǎng)這么大，第一次可以在全無壓力之下投入地玩?！?/p>

一個(gè)普通得再也不能普通的游戲，讓謝霆鋒足足享受了三個(gè)月，陪他度過了緊張的拍攝生活，這是很多人都沒有想到的吧。在謝霆鋒的記憶之中，自己的純真很早已失去。

“我不記得上一次最開心是什么時(shí)間，反而最記得小時(shí)候最恨拍賀年照，每次都要被大人要求露出笑臉。還有，就是突然被校長(zhǎng)叫入辦公室，問我為什么上了雜志封面，那時(shí)很困擾，現(xiàn)在仍然記得。”

喜歡不喜歡謝霆鋒的人，都知道他有一對(duì)明星父母謝賢、狄波拉。當(dāng)年兩人走紅的時(shí)候，為了宣傳，每年春節(jié)前都會(huì)為雜志拍攝一組封面賀歲照片。從一歲起，謝霆鋒都會(huì)被媽媽抱著去拍。拍攝的時(shí)候，如果他不笑，還要被打屁股。于是，他從小就恨死了照相?？墒?，被別人拍照片似乎成了他的一個(gè)宿命，因?yàn)槿缃駸o論走到哪里，都有狗仔隊(duì)環(huán)伺在側(cè)。

正因?yàn)榇?，為了所謂的公眾形象，他從小就被父母要求時(shí)刻注意“將自己的最佳一面展示在鏡頭前”：男孩之間玩打架游戲？“不行，那樣會(huì)讓人覺得你沒有家教”；和女孩子逛街？“不行，那樣會(huì)被人覺得和你老爸一樣花心”；玩滑板？“不行，萬一毀容怎么辦？”……于是，其他小孩子所能經(jīng)歷的樂趣，都與謝霆鋒無緣了。

“小時(shí)候聽到最多的話，就是‘不行’，所以后來我干脆不出門，每天呆在家里看電視?！本褪菫榱俗坊剡@些失去的童真，他后來?？纯ㄍㄆ?。

一個(gè)被“賣”掉的小孩

每次做明星訪問前，虛榮心就會(huì)蹦出來提醒我：“一定要穿得時(shí)尚一點(diǎn)，這樣才會(huì)在明星面前自信一點(diǎn)?！笨墒沁@次見謝霆鋒，我沒有花任何心思，因?yàn)橹霸缬幸娺^謝霆鋒的同事為我減壓：“見謝霆鋒不用穿太好，否則你會(huì)被當(dāng)成明星的?！?/p>

開始我不懂同事話中的意思，直到與謝霆鋒面對(duì)面，一切恍然大悟：面前的謝霆鋒，衣著簡(jiǎn)單到令人難以置信，同街頭隨時(shí)與你擦肩而過的年輕人并無兩樣：款式普通的白色衛(wèi)衣，洗得發(fā)白的牛仔褲看不出牌子，球鞋好像是adidas的，但絕對(duì)不是限量款。

“呵呵，今天穿的這些衣服都不是我花錢買的。上衣是去臺(tái)灣做宣傳時(shí)公司買的，牛仔褲是媽咪送的，波鞋是過生日時(shí)陳奕迅送的?！闭f這番話的時(shí)候，謝霆鋒沒有絲毫的羞澀與難為情，相反卻充滿了自得與滿足，畢竟，他是一個(gè)同一件衣服可以穿五年的主兒。

有一次，他為一家國際期刊中文版拍攝照片。人家要求必須是新造型，于是經(jīng)紀(jì)人勸他買幾套衣服，他笑著拒絕了，只是跑到蘇永康家中挑了幾件衣服完成了那次拍攝?！澳谴嗡械脑煨?，都是用康哥的衣服，我只戴了自己的一頂帽子?！?/p>

不要懷疑謝霆鋒收入不足，也不要以為他不喜歡穿名牌，之所以這么節(jié)省，是因?yàn)樗€欠公司的錢：“沒錯(cuò)，我還欠英皇一筆債，為了盡快還債，我不得不時(shí)時(shí)節(jié)省。”

雖然話說出來不好聽，但是16歲就被迫出道的謝霆鋒，可以說是一個(gè)被“賣”掉的小孩子，原因就是為了替生意失敗的父親還債。我不想問他當(dāng)時(shí)的心情，因?yàn)樗髞肀憩F(xiàn)出的一系列出人意料的舉動(dòng)，已經(jīng)說明了他的無奈與反抗。比如在臺(tái)上砸吉他，比如同記者動(dòng)粗，比如不接受公司安排的工作。最夸張的一次是，他丟下大堆工作一聲不響遠(yuǎn)走加拿大。

我不知道是什么原因讓這個(gè)一直以來對(duì)父母言聽計(jì)從的謝霆鋒產(chǎn)生這么反常的舉動(dòng)，但是后來出走事件很快解決，他重新回到香港工作，最大的原因應(yīng)該還是為了還債。他說：“有時(shí)我也想，為什么這么沉重的經(jīng)濟(jì)負(fù)擔(dān)要我一個(gè)小孩子來承擔(dān)，為什么我不能像其他小孩子一樣上大學(xué)、談女朋友？可是后來我想通了，我是這個(gè)家的長(zhǎng)子，這些責(zé)任理所應(yīng)當(dāng)由我來擔(dān)當(dāng)?！?/p>

很感謝我們?cè)L問期間來來回回加水的書店小妹，當(dāng)我們的談話氣氛有些沉重的時(shí)候，她的不斷出現(xiàn)，緩解了沉重的氣氛。

“你為什么出來打工?。坷习褰o你多少薪水?。繒晟庠鯓影　敝x霆鋒問加水的小妹。

我從謝霆鋒看似無意的搭話中，分明感受了一絲惺惺相惜。

謝霆鋒與我面對(duì)面，袒露了他作為明星的辛酸一面。在我完成專訪之后，傳來了他的喜訊：2006年謝霆鋒雙喜臨門，他與著名女星張柏芝這對(duì)金童玉女喜結(jié)良緣。對(duì)于男女感情，謝霆鋒說：“感情要專一，一個(gè)男人一定要對(duì)自己的家庭負(fù)責(zé)?！闭f這話的時(shí)候，他讓人感覺到他真的長(zhǎng)大了，成熟了；謝霆鋒的另一喜是2006年9月在杭州舉行的電影百花獎(jiǎng)、金雞獎(jiǎng)的頒獎(jiǎng)典禮上，他高高地站在領(lǐng)獎(jiǎng)臺(tái)上，榮獲最佳男配角獎(jiǎng)。鮮花簇?fù)硭?，鏡頭對(duì)準(zhǔn)他，他成了萬眾矚目的人物。

A Young Star’s Untold Story

By Zhou Pengcheng

Before I interviewed Nicholas Tse， a Hong Kong-based movie star and pop singer， I didn’t think I was a fan of him. But now I am. The interview changed me. When I came back to the office and admitted to my colleagues that my heart ached for him， they burst into a guffaw. But probably they didn’t know what I had just learned from the interview.

That interview was to take place in a sales outlet under the SDX Joint Publishing Company on Hennessy Road in downtown Hong Kong. Glancing again and again at a piece of paper upon which the bookstore’s address was scribbled， the cameraman kept complaining that it was a big mistake to meet Tse there. I did not grouch， for I knew I was not in a position to be picky about the venue. Instead， I regarded it as my fortune to get such an opportunity to interview the young hotshot， who just had starred in a few blockbuster movies.

We finally figured out where the bookstore was. Pushing into the air-conditioned space， I spotted Nicholas Tse at the first glance. He politely apologized for the venue. He had planned to meet us at the Emperor Group headquarters， but since he intended to buy some books， he thought it would be convenient to meet us at the bookstore.

I stole a glance at the books in front of him. The Da Vinci Code and some cartoon books. Noticing my curiosity， Tse explained that cartoons were his best bedtime readings. “The world in cartoons is pure and simple， while reading them I feel relaxed and thrust my regrets to oblivion.”

Regrets? How come a successful twentysomething could have any regrets worth bragging? I thought to myself.

Tse explained and the interview went in an unexpected direction.

As a kid， he hated to appear with his star parents for the New Year cover photos. The practice started when he was only one year old. He would be spanked if he forgot to smile toward the camera. The negative feeling toward photograph worsened as he grew up. In his school days， sometimes， he would be summoned to the principal’s office and got chided because his photo had appeared in a showbiz magazine even though he knew nothing about the cover appearance. He hated pictures since early childhood years but now paparazzi are inescapable part of his daily life.He had a lot of strict dos and don’ts to abide by so that he could look like a good boy. And he was forbidden to play games.

Nicholas Tse did not realize how much fun he had really missed until one day toward the end of 2004 when he was shooting a movie entitled A Chinese Tall Story on the mainland. A colleague came to his hotel room and suggested playing Rich together. Tse was totally confused when he heard the name of the game. The colleague simply couldn’t believe his eyes and ears. How come this young man didn’t know such a popular game? Then Tse and his friends played the game together in Tse’s room. That night Tse was sleepless for a long while. He was grateful to the colleagues for introducing him to the childhood innocent pleasure and fun he had missed. The movie shooting lasted three months and Tse enjoyed playing the game with other actors for the three months.

He was also grateful to his friends for making the generation gap between them disappear. The gap did not refer to the age， but to the things they knew but he didn’t. Tse had worried about how to pay debts， and how to get more rents from his house in Hong Kong. He did not have time to enjoy the fun of skiing and the carefree talks about LV， Nike， and NBA.

The gap was understandable because Tse started making money at 16 in order to pay back the debts his father had made due to a business loss. The youngster was resentful and rebellious for a while. He smashed a guitar in a performance， he lost temper with journalists on a few occasions， he refused to accept work assignments arranged by the company， and he ran away to Canada and hid himself there for a while. He resented the responsibilities he was forced to take up. He yearned to lead a normal life: go to university， date a girl， etc. Then， one day， he came to realize that he was the eldest son of the family and he couldn’t shun the family responsibilities.

An almost tangible sadness hanged over the interview for a while. A girl working at the bookstore came over to refill our teacups. Tse chatted with her， asking about the bookstore business and her work there. This made the tension vanish. Knowing Tse’s early stories made me understand his compassion and sympathy behind the small talk with the shop assistant.

The year 2006 was Nicholas Tse’s good luck year. He married Cecilia Cheung， another Hong Kong-based movie star. He won the best supporting actor award from the China’s One Hundred Flowers Awards and Golden Roost Awards in September 2006.

(Translated by David)