文/廬隱 譯注/ 蔡力堅

在璀璨的明燈下，華筵間，我只有悄悄地逃逝了，逃逝到無燈光，無月彩的天幕下。叢林危立如鬼影，星光閃爍如幽螢，不必傷繁華如夢，——只這一天寒星，這一地冷霧，已使我萬念成灰，心事如冰1詞語的意思應該由語境決定。這里的“萬念成灰，心事如冰”在其他語境中經(jīng)常指想法或打算的破滅，形容極端灰心失望的心情，但在本文語境下顯然不是這個意思。作者先談到“不必傷繁華如夢”，從“不必”兩字的語氣我們可以看到“繁華如夢”恰恰是作者要逃避的。下文還談到“我具有的是夜鶯的眼”等，那就意味著她喜歡夜間。作者在最后一段還提到在黑暗中徘徊時可“暫時脫下鐵鎖和鐐銬”。由此可見，所謂“萬念成灰”實為“萬念均如灰一樣消散”，所謂“心事如冰”實為“所有心事均如冰一樣凍結”，因此不妨譯成drive away all worldly worries。當然，這兩個四字組合同義，翻譯時沒有必要分開處理。！

A sumptuous banquet hall bathed in swirling lights is not the place for me.I slip out quietly into darkness.Trees in the woods stand like an army of ghosts.Stars are twinkling like teeny-tiny phantoms.It’s great to be away from the boisterous bustle.A stroll under a starry sky through the cool mist is enough to drive away all worldly worries.

2唉！天！運命之神！我深知道我應受的擺布和顛連，我具有的是夜鶯的眼，不斷的在密菁中尋覓，我看見幽靈的獰羨，我看見黑暗中的靈光！

2Oh my god of fate! I know I’m trapped and dogged by misery.But I have eyes like those of a nightingale,able to see in the dark.I see ugly faces of spirits.I see will-o’-the-wisps.

3唉！天！運命之神！我深知道我應受的擺布與顛連，我具有的是杜鵑的舌，不斷的哀啼于花蔭。枝不殘，血不干，這艱辛的旅途便不曾走完！

3Oh my god of fate! I know I’m trapped and dogged by misery.But like a cuckoo on a shaded perch, I never stop humming sad tunes.As long as tree branches don’t wither, as long as blood still runs in my veins, I’ll continue my journey, however bumpy the road ahead is.

4唉！天！運命之神！我深知道我應受的擺布與顛連，我具有的是深刻慘凄的心情，不斷的追求傷毀者的呻吟與悲哭——這便是2“這便是”指的是上文的“深刻慘凄的心情”“呻吟與悲哭”等，但譯文里如果用代詞this，那么指代關系就會不清楚，不如把“呻吟與悲哭”的原因（即sadness）用作主語。原文里的“燃料”是名詞，譯文里的fuel 當動詞用。“It goads me on.”作為“Sadness fuels my life.”的補充，雖然原文里沒有類似的詞語，但其意思暗含其中。我生命的燃料，雖因此而靈毀成灰，亦無所怨！

4Oh my god of fate! I know I’m trapped and dogged by misery.But I’m struggling with a wounded heart.I groan and moan.I sob and wail.Sadness fuels my life.It goads me on.I’ll fight until my soul is turned into dust.

5唉！天！運命之神！我深知道我應受的擺布與顛連，我具有的是血跡狼藉的心和身，縱使有一天血化成青煙。這既往的鱗傷，料也難掩埋！咳！因之我不能慰人以柔情，更不能予人以幸福，只有這辛辣的心錐時時刺醒人們綺麗的春夢，將一天歡愛變成永世的咒詛！自然這也許是不可避免的報復！

5Oh my god of fate! I know I’m trapped and dogged by misery.I’m inured to gory horror.I would not be scared if one day even blood evaporated like smoke going up in the air.I know there’s no way to cover up all the wounds and injuries I’ve sustained.I don’t have a soft side, and can in no way bring others comfort, much less happiness.All I’m capable of is jolt you out of your beautiful dreams, and turn your joy into everlasting sorrow.Maybe this is an inevitable payback.

6A sumptuous banquet hall bathed in swirling lights is not the place for me.I slip out quietly into darkness.Trees in the woods stand like an army of ghosts.Stars are twinkling like teeny-tiny phantoms.I walk back and forth in the starlight, like an escaped prisoner on the run, temporarily breaking free of shackles.It’s great to be away from the boisterous bustle.A stroll under a starry sky through the cool mist is enough to drive

away all worldly worries.■

6在璀璨的明燈下，華筵間，我只有悄悄逃逝了！逃逝到無燈光，無月彩的天幕下。叢林無光如鬼影，星光閃爍如幽螢，我徘徊黑暗中，我躑躇星夜下3“我徘徊黑暗中，我躑躇星夜下”體現(xiàn)了中文對仗的特點，但譯文里不必保留對仗，也無法保留對仗，因為“徘徊”與“躑躇” 同義，而且“黑暗”與“星夜”相關。英文里簡單的一句話I walk back and forth in the starlight 就已經(jīng)涵蓋了所有細節(jié)。譯者如果試圖再現(xiàn)此處的對仗，必定在譯文里造成不可接受的累贅。同樣，“我恍如亡命者，我恍如逃囚”，作者也用了兩個不同的比喻，但這兩個比喻意思相近，完全可以合并成一個比喻，如like an escaped prisoner on the run。語言的簡潔和表達的效率永遠優(yōu)先于與原文在形式上的對應。，我恍如亡命者，我恍如逃囚，暫時脫下鐵鎖和鐐銬。不必傷繁華如夢——只這一天寒星，這一地冷霧，已使我萬念成灰，心事如冰！ □