繪/也圓

我之所以寫這本書，從某種意義來講就是為了能找到你
——《愛在日落黃昏時(shí)》經(jīng)典獨(dú)白

繪/也圓

Céline： I always feel like a freak because I'm never able to move on like this: People just have an affair， or even entire relationships...

They break up and they forget.

They move on like they would have changed brand①brand 英 ［br?nd］ 美 ［br?nd］ vt. 銘刻于，銘記；打烙印于；印……商標(biāo)于n. 商標(biāo)，牌子；烙印of cereals②cereal 英 ［'s??r??l］ 美 ［'s?r??l］ n. 谷類，谷物；谷類植物adj. 谷類的；谷類制成的.

I feel I was never able to forget anyone I've been with.

Because each person had their own specific qualities.

You can never replace③replace 英 ［r?'ple?s］ 美 ［r?'ples］ vt. 取代，代替；替換；歸還，償還；把……放回原處anyone.What is lost is lost.

Each relationship， when it ends，really damages me. I never fully recover④recover 英 ［r?'k?v?］ 美 ［r?'k?v?］ vt. 恢復(fù)；彌補(bǔ)；重新獲得vi. 恢復(fù)；勝訴；重新得球.

That's why I'm very careful with getting involved⑤involve 英 ［?n'v?lv］ 美 ［?n'vɑlv］ vt. 包含；牽涉；使陷于；潛心于because it hurts too much.

I will miss of the person the most mundane things. Like I'm obsessed⑥obsess 英 ［?b'ses］ 美 ［?b's?s］ vt. 迷住，纏??；使……著迷；使……困擾with little things.

Maybe I'm crazy， but when I was a little girl， my mom told me that I was always late to school.

One day she followed me to see why.

I was looking at chestnuts falling fromthe trees， rolling on the sidewalk.

Or ants crossing the road， the waya leaf casts⑦cast 英 ［kɑ?st］ 美 ［k?st］ vt. 投，拋；計(jì)算；澆鑄；投射（光、影、視線等）n. 投擲，拋；鑄件，［古生］ 鑄型；演員陣容；脫落物vi. 投，拋垂釣魚鉤；計(jì)算，把幾個(gè)數(shù)字加起來a shadow on a tree trunk.

Little things. I think it's the same with people.

I see in them little details，so specific to each of them... that move me and that I miss and will always miss.

You can never replace anyone because everyone is made of such beautiful， specific details. Like， I remember the way your beardhas a bit of red in it and how the sun was making it glow... that morning right before you left. I remembered that， and I missed it. Really crazy， right？

Céline：我是說，我覺得自己很沒用，因?yàn)槲覐膩聿荒苓@么灑脫。 人們只是隨意留情，甚至即使是認(rèn)真的感情。

人們也會(huì)分手，然后忘記。就像換另一個(gè)牌子的麥片一樣簡(jiǎn)單。

可我覺得我永遠(yuǎn)忘不了跟我交往過的每一個(gè)人。

因?yàn)樗麄兠總€(gè)人都有很不一樣的特質(zhì)。

你不能取代任何人，失去的就失去了。

每段感情結(jié)束的時(shí)候我都很受傷我從來沒有完全恢復(fù)過。

所以我盡量避免介入感情，因?yàn)槟欠N痛真的是太深了！

我會(huì)很懷念一個(gè)人很平常的東西，好比那些細(xì)節(jié)，或者也許我有點(diǎn)神經(jīng)質(zhì)。但當(dāng)我小的時(shí)候，媽媽告訴我，我上學(xué)經(jīng)常遲到。

有一天她跟著我想知道為什么。

我正看著栗子從樹上掉下來，滾到便道上。

或者是螞蟻過馬路，葉子在樹干上映出的影子。

種種小事，我想對(duì)人也是一樣。

我看到的是他們的細(xì)節(jié)，很細(xì)微，那些能感動(dòng)我的細(xì)節(jié)，然后我就會(huì)想念他們，一直想念。

你不能取代任何人，因?yàn)槊總€(gè)人都有他那種美麗的獨(dú)特的細(xì)微之處。就好像我記得，你的胡子上有一點(diǎn)紅色我記得你離開的那天早上朝陽(yáng)是怎樣照得它閃閃亮。我一直記著。非常懷念，很神經(jīng)質(zhì)，對(duì)吧？

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