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我是怎么挨過和朋友疏遠(yuǎn)的那段日子的

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They said true friends will never leave you. But I wonder why me and my "true friends" are now apart？ I've been in this group of friends for four years. But just when I thought we have a strong bond①bond 英 ［b?nd］ 美 ［bɑnd］ n. 債券；結(jié)合；約定；黏合劑；紐帶vi. 結(jié)合，團(tuán)結(jié)在一起vt. 使結(jié)合；以……作保， everything went down. Once they make you feel like they will not be completed without you， next thing you know you are no longer belong. I don't really have an idea why they drift②drift英 ［dr?ft］ 美 ［dr?ft］ n. 漂流，漂移；趨勢(shì)；漂流物vi. 漂流，漂移；漂泊vt. 使……漂流；使……受風(fēng)吹積away. I feel rejected in a way that when I try to talk to them they turn their backs.

I feel betrayed in a way that I trusted them in every single thing， in every single secret that I have then in a snap③snap 英 ［sn?p］ 美 ［sn?p］ vt. 突然折斷，拉斷；猛咬；啪地關(guān)上vi. 咬；厲聲說；啪嗒一聲關(guān)上n. 猛咬；噼啪聲；突然折斷adj. 突然的gossip blows out. I feel depression and loneliness. The people I trusted the most are now the one who's putting me in shame. There comes a time that I skip meals and don't drink anything. I got sick and been confined④confined 英 ［k?n'fa?nd］ 美 ［k?n'fa?nd］ adj. 狹窄的；幽禁的；有限制的；在分娩中的 v. 限制（confine的過去式和過去分詞）， but didn't hear a thing from them.

But how did I get away with it？ I felt so much pain throughout this journey. I felt exhausted and about to give up. I gave up the relationship. I shift my attention to myself； I read more books，talked with my heart by writing dairy. And slowly I recovered with all of the pain and depression. Now that I'm over with all the things they brought me，they started to communicate⑤communicate 英 ［k?'mju?n?ke?t］ 美 ［k?'mjun?ket］ vi. 通訊，傳達(dá)；相通；交流；感染vt. 傳達(dá)；感染；顯露with me. I know I'll meet more people in the future. But for now，I'll just focus on loving my self more than them. People come and go. There are other things worth our tears and pain. Maybe you're struggling with a big thing right now but always remember your heart is always there to guide us. Nothing is bigger than it！ Trust yourself and have faith.

We are all great individual⑥individual 英 ［?nd?'v?dj?（?）l］ 美 ［，?nd?'v?d?u?l］ adj. 個(gè)人的；個(gè)別的；獨(dú)特的n. 個(gè)人，個(gè)體. Don't lose hope no matter how hard the situation is. Life is beautiful live it the way it's supposed⑦suppose 英 ［s?'p??z］ 美 ［s?'poz］ vt. 假設(shè)；認(rèn)為；讓（虛擬語氣）；推想vi. 猜想；料想conj. 假使……結(jié)果會(huì)怎樣to be.

人們常說真正的朋友永遠(yuǎn)不會(huì)離你而去。但為什么我的“摯友”要和我疏遠(yuǎn)？我們已經(jīng)做了4年的朋友了。恰恰在我覺得關(guān)系已經(jīng)密不可分的時(shí)候，一切卻變得不如以往。以前她們給你這種感覺——沒有你，她們的世界就不完整，而當(dāng)下你會(huì)覺得自己是局外人。我當(dāng)時(shí)真的不明白她們?yōu)槭裁磿?huì)遠(yuǎn)離我，我試著和她們講話，但她們會(huì)故意轉(zhuǎn)過身去。

我覺得自己被背叛了，我毫無保留地和她們分享，現(xiàn)在這些小秘密卻被當(dāng)成八卦來散布。我感到無助和孤獨(dú)，我曾信任的人使我陷入羞恥當(dāng)中。有一段時(shí)間我連飯都吃不下。不與人接觸，也沒有那些“朋友”的消息。

我是怎么捱挨過這段時(shí)間的呢？ 這段時(shí)間，我覺得痛苦萬分，筋疲力盡，想要放棄。最后，我放棄了這段關(guān)系。我看了很多書，寫日記、來和自己的內(nèi)心交談。慢慢地，我從那些痛苦和失望里掙脫了出來。我挨過了那段日子，不再為她們的所作所為感到難過，而這時(shí)，她們反過來想要和我交流。我知道在以后我會(huì)遇到更多的人。但是現(xiàn)在，我更關(guān)注我自己的內(nèi)心。也許還有很多別的事情，讓你和我一樣感到痛苦，但請(qǐng)你記住，心是我們的指引。相信自己，你就不會(huì)懼怕痛苦。

每個(gè)人都是值得驕傲的個(gè)體，不管境況多艱難，都不要失去希望，生活還是會(huì)一如既往地美好下去。

How did I Get Away the Pain of Being Isolated by My Friends