by Steven Dowshen

When I think of the horror movie The Ring， I remember what one of my friends said， which explained why she was so afraid of the movie： “It doesnt choose those who are young or old， or sick or healthy， it just chooses， randomly[隨便地].”

This is how I think of cancer. It has no predetermined[預(yù)先確定的] plan. It does not matter if you are old or young.

I had the perfect life. No one died， no one was sick； we were all happy and loving life.

Then I discovered my grandfather had cancer.

當(dāng)我想起恐怖片《午夜兇鈴》的時(shí)候，我記得我的一個(gè)朋友說過她為什么很怕這部電影：“死亡不是選擇年輕人或老人，也不是選病人或健康人下手，它只是隨機(jī)地挑選?！?/p>

癌癥在我眼里也是如此。它沒有預(yù)定計(jì)劃，不管你是老是幼，都有可能。

我以前的生活很完美。沒有人去世，也沒有人生?。凰腥硕己荛_心，熱愛生活。

然后，我發(fā)現(xiàn)爺爺?shù)昧税┌Y。

No matter how much I told myself he could live， that he might not die， somehow I still felt as if it was a death sentence[死刑]. He was so young， only 63.

He fought so hard. Whenever I feel my own life taking a turn for the worse， I remember how many years he lived fighting such a scary disease.

When he died， he died with a huge party going on around him， with all his friends and adult family. They ate and drank and celebrated[贊美，歌頌] Grandpas life. He died with dignity[尊嚴(yán)] and honor， surrounded by loved ones.

I honestly dont know how I coped. I never cried alone. I had the compassion[憐憫，同情] of my friends and the support of my family and teachers. I just remembered my grandfathers wish that we should celebrate his life.

Thats how we came up with the idea for Hives[蜂房，蜂箱] for Lives—a business my sister and I started where all the profits go to the American Cancer Society （ACS）. We sell honey， honeycomb[蜂窩， 蜂巢]， beeswax[蜂蠟] candles， and lip balm[潤唇膏]， which all come from our beehives[蜂窩] in Virginia.

It started out small， two years ago， with just an idea. During our first year we donated[捐贈(zèng)] more than $2，000 to the ACS. The next year， a man who belonged to my grandparents “bee club” willed[立遺囑贈(zèng)予] his honey to us， and our little business grew.

無論我怎樣對自己說他會(huì)活下去的，他也許不會(huì)死，但我還是覺得這仿佛是一個(gè)死刑判決。他太年輕了，才63歲。

他頑強(qiáng)地和癌癥抗?fàn)帯Ｃ慨?dāng)我覺得生活要變壞的時(shí)候，我就會(huì)記起他有多少年在和這個(gè)可怕的疾病作斗爭。

爺爺去世的時(shí)候，他舉辦了一個(gè)大型派對，親朋好友都在他身邊。他們邊吃邊喝，贊頌爺爺?shù)囊簧?。他帶著尊?yán)和榮譽(yù)離開了這個(gè)世界，身邊是他愛的人。

我真的不知道自己是怎么應(yīng)對的。我從沒有獨(dú)自一人哭泣過，我有朋友的關(guān)懷以及家人和老師的支持。我只記得爺爺希望我們頌揚(yáng)他的一生。

我們由此想到了“蜂房·生命”這個(gè)主意——妹妹和我做起了生意，并把所有收入捐給美國癌癥學(xué)會(huì)（ACS）。我們售賣蜂蜜、蜂巢、蜂蠟蠟燭和潤唇膏，所有產(chǎn)品都來自我們在（美國）弗吉尼亞的蜂箱。

兩年前剛開始的時(shí)候，這只是一門小生意，只有一個(gè)想法而已。我們第一年就給ACS捐了超過兩千美元。第二年，一位和祖父母屬于同一個(gè)“蜜蜂俱樂部”的男士立遺囑把他的蜂蜜送給我們，于是我們小小的事業(yè)逐漸壯大。

We sold at craft fairs， wine festivals， schools， and to anyone else who would buy！ We had my uncle sell in California and my grandmother sell in Chicago. We have sold honey in 13 states—even in Puerto Rico！

This year we donated more than $10，000 to the ACS and were hoping to do more next year. Hopefully our business will help find a cure or just improve the life of someone with cancer.

I feel like Hives for Lives is a way to honor my grandfather. Honor his love， his life， and his strength.

With Hives for Lives reminding me of my grandfather every day， I feel as if I can move on in life， that he will always be alive in my heart and memories. It made me capable of coping with his death， because I felt like I had truly honored his wish of celebrating his life.

I have immortalized[使永存] his spirit through the business and I honor him every day. He always taught me to make the best of things. Well， Grandpa， thats what Im doing， for you.

I hope he is smiling from heaven.

我們在手工藝品展銷會(huì)、紅酒節(jié)、學(xué)校上出售我們的產(chǎn)品，還向所有有興趣的人售賣！我們還叫在加利福尼亞的舅舅和在芝加哥的奶奶幫忙銷售。我們的蜂蜜在13個(gè)州——甚至波多黎各都有出售！

今年，我們向ACS捐了超過一萬美元，我們希望明年能捐更多。希望我們的蜜蜂生意有助于找到治療癌癥的方法，起碼可以提高癌癥病人的生活質(zhì)量。

我感覺到“蜂房·生命”是紀(jì)念爺爺?shù)囊环N方式。紀(jì)念他的愛，他的生活和他的力量。

“蜂房·生命”每天都令我想起爺爺，我覺得我的生活可以繼續(xù)走下去，而他會(huì)永遠(yuǎn)活在我的心里和記憶里。這讓我能夠面對他的離開，因?yàn)槲腋械阶约捍_確實(shí)實(shí)遵照了他的遺愿，贊頌他的一生。

通過蜜蜂生意，他的精神得到永生，我每一天都會(huì)紀(jì)念他。他總是教我在不如意時(shí)不要失去希望。爺爺，我現(xiàn)在就是這樣做了，為了你。

我希望他在天堂里正在會(huì)心地微笑。